Thursday, November 29, 2007

.......ding dong.....

………the day started like every other day. Waking up was the hardest part, coffee and bread for breakfast. Then off to the shower room. Fixing up my attire and grooming myself and it’s the same time of the day to drive to work. Beep ! beep ! bong bong!. The traffic jam is another nuisance once again. After driving about 53mins, I have finally arrived at my client’s office/warehouse. The warehouse isn’t big nor is it nice. Its just a 3 storey building that inhibits about 40 staffs.

So the “work like hell” is about to begin…… checking this, controlling that, documenting all the necessary items, taking a time off every other hour. After the puffing session, I feel rejuvenated once again. Minutes passed by me very slow, hours even longer, and when the clock strikes 12.30pm, its Luncheon time. Drove my automobile out to the neighboring restaurants, and ordered a bowl of noodles just to fill my almost empty stomach. Lunch was bad today, as the noodle was tasteless and best of all it was almost like a vegetarian noodle. This is because there weren’t any meat in it, or u can say there were only a few little pieces of pork in it.

Off to the warehouse again, driving by the empty streets of an industrial area is the only route back to my clients place and its time to start working once more. This time the hours passed by even slower than before lunch. Wishing that the time would tick faster, as I am so sick of working. Everyday I have to make sure I finish all the assignments that were assigned to me and it makes me feel so sad when I have to work and do more than the others. The other colleagues seems to be very busy with their work and all, but I am doing way more assignments then them. One reason is because I like to finish up my work a.s.a.p so that I can have more free time for myself and get away from the desk, but every time I do that, I am being assigned to more “OPJ” ( other people’s Job). As they are saying that they have a lot of work and lack of time. Since I have finish my own assignments, my peers would request for my assistances. This is really unfair as we are all given the similar assignment and how on Earth is it possible that I am a new staff, but completes assignments quicker than the old bags? Which have more experience than me?

*&^#$%@#%&^ - screwing and cursing in my mind, I am reluctant to assist them as they always gets to do less work and gains the same wages as me. But when u are new in this firm, I guess u get bullied by others whom had work a lil longer than u have.. well its life lets face it.

Being an auditor was a dream of mine years ago, always fancying that it would be so Glamorous and Professional to be in a firm like mine and best of all being an AUDITOR. My guess is all those fresh graduates are also thinking like what I once taught about. Well to my understanding even those currently studying their Degree are so excited to be an auditor once they Grad.

Let me give my 2 cents on this topic of Auditing…

YeS… Auditing is a very highly rated profession that a lot of people want to be a part of it. After u have work in an Audit firm or lets say the Big might 4 auditing Firms. U come to realize that u have overworked and underpaid by your employers. Many of us would envy our friends who are working in the banking, property, marketing, advertising, and events companies are working LESS and reaping the same wages as US.

Many and I mean A lot of the auditors would be cursing their mouth off to this ridiculous job that we have and also thinking of “”QESDL” cure. (Quitting Every Single Day of Our life) . One of the major reasons for the QESDL is because we always have to work the long hours, often to the wee morning , back to work after just a few hours of sleep, Low salary, weekend taken up by work, friends leaving us behind, girlfriends/boyfriends being annoyed with our job as they have less time to spend with us, clubbing lifestyles are going to be a part of our history, and we would even forget the meaning of “HAPPINESS”

The only thing that keeps Auditors in an audit firm is because of the value we will hope to bring in the future when we enter the commercial world of organizations. But how far can this be true? Maybe its to a lot of auditors, but there are a few among us that aren’t able to achieve such dreams that we used to think about after working 3-4 years with the Big 4.

Well, all I can portray now is that I am under a lot of stress, sleeping disorder, fatigue, pressure, mood swings like a yoyo, smoking lotzz, zero fun & happiness, and feeling very upset all the time.

Don’t really know how to handle this part of my life, as I am so not crafted to be an auditor, because I am a person who loves fun, out going activities and best of all enjoyment in life. I used to work in an Event company…and I have all the things I wanted in a job, let alone I am being paid the same wages and get to control the things around me at my command. The reason I went into the Auditing line is because I want to achieve a professional status in the future and reap more wages to provide for my “ future wife, kids, and parents.” I like to think long term and plans out the ways to achieve it. Sadly, I have so much opportunity cost being an auditor.

A lot of times I break down and just wanted to forgo what I call an ideal lifestyle in the future, but I cant do it because I want to be able to provide for my future family and my future wife. By that I mean , I don’t want to make it hard for me and partner to enjoy life when we are married. I want to give my wife the best thing in life, my kids the best education – toys- food- apparels- automobile and also happiness without worrying if their father or husband cant provide it or if provided it would mean loosing a leg.

I guess I have those old man thinking in me, which is to make the family a happy, fruitful and less stress when it comes to financial standards. I don’t want them to be in financial problems at any point of time. I really wish I can do that, then a sense of achievement will be felt.

Hope this Auditing line really constructs the road of my life, and make me feel that I have chosen the right way and also make all those suffering that I am and going to be under in the next few years pay!.

Ahhh!! It only 4.30pm.. when only can I leave this hell world and get back to my red sofa @ home..
..well guess that’s all ..for this time..

A message to all those Auditors out there,

The job is hard, the road is harder. Learn thru this suffering and hope that it will make a difference in the coming future.

Think about this, I may take a step back, but I will take a giant leap in the future.

This is my motivation in life. I stand by this as it makes me stronger every time when I am down and sad.

Try it..try to love and understand the meaning of this word to make the full advantage out of it.

What we do today, echoes in eternity

is another Phrase I keep close to me, in attempting my daily obstacles.

----- this is the end of the day.. … rest more and try to find ways to make ur self happier..and please when u have done it, don’t hesitate to teach me how to be happy once more.

Till next time… take Care, be healthy and try to be happy… as I am hoping to be happy soon..but I just cant think of any methods to make me happy…and not so sick of my life. …….

Please inform me if u guys know of any methods.

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