in the mind

there is this strange feeling in my mind that isnt getting out. it just keeps inside and make me insomnia! which is kinda freaky! i am thinking alot alot, but there is just no conclusion nor outcome to handle this frustrations.

the frustration to begin with, i also dont know what is it! :"something: just bothering my mind! Causing me sleepless nights and sleep during the day! FREAK vampire babytt! i am!

when the sun comes up, i feel sleepy! when the sun goes away i feel tired! sish!

sish!!

the momentum must come back after this raya! i need the up beat of my momentum! its like now those classical music playing, i need the techno music in my life! you got to pump it up!

got to pump it up!


just want to SLEEP

last longer - iced caffe latte

today is a day. tomorrow is also a day.

feeling some mild headache, feeling some weird moments in life rhat is getting me over board the level of a peaceful mind. moving away from society and moving futher away from my goal in life..

so many freaking things are moving away from me at this moment..and this is frustrating. its really really hard to do things, when the people are not coming into the same channel. with the differences in channel, we feel that things are not in the same circle of our life and daily life.

the amount of effort we need to move things from one point to one point, and its really really HARD...! its really.

coz we need to do everything ourself and without that we cant move ! We cant be hoping for others to help you,coz they dont want to help you without any special benefits.

we must do it ourself, coz only us can help us and only us understand our needs! so fuck the people around us, and make it the way we want..stop bothering about the people and make it myself!

i can do it! we can do it!
just believe and dont give up! life is a challenge, if not there is no life!

trust yourself!

Anger management class

i need an anger management class...coz i was very angry the day before till the extend i want to kill somebody.

the madness that i am so top of the world that nothing can solve the anger! sometimes i just feel so angry over a person that i just cant solve the things that the madness is producing.

i want to kill people! not peoples! just people! how do we solve the anger that we have over people>?

is there anything we can do to solve the anger?

relaxing is not helping the anger coz its way too hard to get it!
relaxing is hard to come! fuck!!

with lots of love,
babytt