dont understand....

its been awhile already..i feel a little tired, yet i dont understand what i want.

why dont i just stop awhile now, and rest. So that i could find the answers that i am looking for. Why is it so hard to find the answer?.. eventhought its been such a while since i started this thinking. Is it just that i am too dumb to understand what i actually want? or its just that i am a fickle minded person. Clearly if u ask anyone, they would be able to give me the answer. But again, i myself need to make up the decision. But there are just too many things i need to be worrying about. Whether if the decision is Right? Wrong:regret? ..... i want things to be different, perhaps i just have such a big brain, that isnt fully utilised, thats why i keep having to think about the options.

*brainstorming*